Why I told Nick I was engaged

     I told Nick I was engaged because he really made me angry. He broke up with me over the phone. Isn't that so wrong? First of all, he can't just break up with me over the phone. No one would want to get rid of me. Second, why couldn't he come and talk to me in person? I didn't do anything wrong to him. I wanted answers. I wanted to know what I did wrong, but I mostly wanted revenge so I told him I was engaged. I thought he was a good person, but he showed me otherwise. I wanted to hurt him like he hurt me. I think he was pretty darn shocked when he heard what I had to say, but I was glad. I wanted him to see that I didn't need him. I mean I don't need any man. I can support myself and can make myself happy. I just find it crazy that he would break up with me. I could have any man I wanted and no man could tell  me I am wrong. They would all agree I am sure. I don't think it was wrong for me to say I was engaged because hurt me first. I thought he really had fallen for me and then things just ended. I am confused as to why he would break up with me if he liked me like he said. We could have had a great relationship, but he ruined it. We could have been happy and he could have shown me off. I could have been his trophy wife, but too late for him! His loss! Seeing the love triangle kind of made me feel differently about relationships anyways. I did not want to have a crazy messed up relationship. Oh well, I am just happy I got my revenge and told him I was engaged. I will find my own man eventually. I just have to pick the right one and I will. 

What I was thinking when I saw Myrtle dead

    I pulled up to the scene of the crime not sure what I was going to see. My mind had a million and one thoughts flowing through it. We pulled up closer and there she was. Myrtle was dead and lying there on the ground lifeless. My heart sank to my stomach. That poor woman was dead. They said that a yellow car had stuck her. The only yellow car I knew of was the car Gatsby and Daisy had been driving. I was mind blown at that point. They wouldn't kill Myrtle, would they? No, no they couldn't have at least not on purpose. Who was driving. I guess Gatsby was. Well then again I don't know it could of been Daisy for all I know. After everything that went on at the hotel there are plenty of raises this could have happened. Maybe Daisy was mad and found out about Tom's relationship with Myrtle. Maybe Gatsby wanted to anger Tom so he did it. I have no idea what could have really happened. It could have just all been an accident. All I knew was that if Gatsby was to blame his life is over. Tom would make his life a living hell. Daisy would be safe because she could just run back to Tom, but Gatsby is in trouble now. I feel bad for him. We just had to wait and see what would happen next. This is all just insane. I am in shock and I am so confused. It's crazy how things happen so quickly and you never even know it's coming.

Why I felt awkward at the hotel suite

I felt so awkward at the hotel suite because I had to sit there in listening to arguing. I wanted to run out of the room so bad, but Nick and I were stuck. There was a love triangle forming. I felt bad for my friends because they were putting themselves through hell. Why try and make something work if it's going to be a struggle no matter what. Tom is a cheater first of all. He has mistresses and Daisy deserves a man that will give her all of his attention. Tom had been secretly seeing Myrtle. Then again, it was wrong for Daisy to start seeing Gatsby. I think the whole situation is a little crazy to be honest. It just blows my mind that people can't stay loyal to one another. I mean if you love someone then stay with them and give them all your attention. I just felt so uncomfortable there. Could Nick and I just leave and come back later? What was the point of staying there and listening to them all fight if we aren't even part of the situation. The whole situation was just crazy. I think Tom was starting to get jealous of Daisy and Gatsby. He thinks he can cheat on her, but when it comes to Daisy and other men he gets angry. Neither of them should be seeing other people anyways. They are a married couple! They are bound to one another! They are all just a mess and need to get their priorities straight. I sure as hell never would want to be in their position. I hope they get everything together. That is just too much drama having to deal with. I just hated having to witness it all. I wanted to run out of the room screaming.

What I was feeling when Nick broke up with me over the phone

   I was so infuriated when Nick broke up with me. First of all, why would he break up over the phone? At least come and talk to me in person first. I deserve  to be confronted face to face. Secondly, who does he think he is breaking up with me? I am the Jordan Baker! He can't just dump me like that. I am a strong, sophisticated woman that any man would be lucky to have. I don't even need a man. I am independent, but it just ticks me off that he thinks he can dumb me. He has no idea what fury I was feeling. I wanted to get him back. It wasn't fair to just drop me off the face of the earth. We got close, romantic, and had a relationship. I know that he had feelings for me too and that is what is annoying. If he liked me why would he break up with me. I don't get what I could have done wrong. I thought I was doing everything right. We weren't super serious or anything, but I thought things would last a little longer. Maybe it is best for us. We are both busy people and have a lot to worry about right now. Although I am annoyed at the whole situation, I will get over it in a second. On to the next one for me. No big deal to me. So many other guys are dying to get with me. I just have to find the right one and you better believe that I will!

What I was feeling when I cheated at my golf tournament

      It's true, I cheated in my golf tournament. Who is to say I was wrong for cheating? At least I was trying something! I was not going to lose that match. I was feeling great out there making some awesome swings. I felt like all eyes were on me and I love that. I looked pretty good out there I too. I wasn't nervous to cheat, I just did it. I definitely didn't feel sorry for cheating. I mean yes, people found out, but I least people where noticing me. I just arrived and I was already the talk around town. I love being the center of attention. Look, I come from Louisville and am new in town. I needed to make a good impression on everyone. I wanted them to see that I was great at something. I wanted to have a good reputation around here. It's always fun to start up gossip. Either you're a somebody or you're a nobody and it is obvious I am a somebody. You can't sit back in the crowd and not be noticed. You must get out there and have people hear your name. I am the type of woman with her own mind and I speak whatever is on it. I just tell it like it is. People talked about me when they heard the news, but like I said at least I was noticed. Even Nick heard the story, but he found out who I was. To be honest, I had fun cheating. Who likes to be boring and not stir up drama? I don't care if people didn't agree with what I did. I think most are just jealous of me anyways. I mean who blames them? I think people like me because I am not afraid to stand out. Overall, I don't feel cheating was wrong for me to do. 

What I was thinking when I first met Nick Carraway

       I first met Nick when he came to Daisy's house. Daisy is his second cousin and I am a close friend of hers. I didn't think much of Nick at first. I am an independent woman, I don't need a man to satisfy me. My first impression of him was that he was very well dressed and sophisticated. He was on the more shy, timid side though. Daisy was definitely trying to set up Nick and I. At first I didn't really care about the whole thing, but I showed my flirty side. I could tell he found me beautiful, I mean who doesn't? I shared with him my knowledge of Mr. Gatsby and Tom & Daisy's relationship. I think he was surprised to see how much I knew. I wasn't shy about saying anything to him. Things between us started to get romantic. We started hanging out a lot and went on a few dates. It was strange for me because I wasn't about all the "lovey dovey" stuff. As time went on, I saw a side to him I really liked. I revealed to him that I liked him. He wasn't careless and that's what sold me. I hated people that were careless. They just disgust me! Our relationship was up and down, but in the end we didn't keep our relationship.